Yesterday was a beautiful day. The Oracle and I went to our favorite place - the beach. We renewed our spirits to the never-changing sound of the surf. The constancy of the beach - the sun, the sounds, the smells - is what gives us such a sense of peace and well-being while we are there. Celebrating our wedding anniversary each way, year after year, is also a constancy that gives continuity to our memories and experiences.
I like to be unpredictable however I also need the balance of ... routine.
Although yesterday my sense of peace was a little - tattered. As I rested underneath the shade of a large beach umbrella, trying to snooze a bit, my mind was whirling and twirling on one subject...
...my impending hip replacement.
It has truly hit me - 2 months from today I am having the most major orthopedic surgery there is ... again.
It's silly really. It's not like I didn't know it was coming; I've known for about 3 years that eventually it would need to be done. I've known since March that I needed to get it done in the coming 12 months.
Scheduling the surgery was totally my decision to make and I made it with the full knowledge of what it meant. I made it because my body is telling me on a daily basis that ... it's time.
... WHAT THE FUCK!
Like an avalanche it hit - rolling me over and over as I contemplated just exactly what I've signed on for.
I have no choice, I know that. Still doesn't make it feel any better.
I am having my second total hip replacement in 2 months.