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Tuesday
Jul172012

What?

Yesterday was a beautiful day.  The Oracle and I went to our favorite place - the beach.  We renewed our spirits to the never-changing sound of the surf.  The constancy of the beach - the sun, the sounds, the smells - is what gives us such a sense of peace and well-being while we are there.  Celebrating our wedding anniversary each way, year after year, is also a constancy that gives continuity to our memories and experiences.

I like to be unpredictable however I also need the balance of ... routine.

Although yesterday my sense of peace was a little - tattered.  As I rested underneath the shade of a large beach umbrella, trying to snooze a bit, my mind was whirling and twirling on one subject...

...my impending hip replacement.

It has truly hit me - 2 months from today I am having the most major orthopedic surgery there is ... again.

Part Deux.

It's silly really.  It's not like I didn't know it was coming; I've known for about 3 years that eventually it would need to be done.  I've known since March that I needed to get it done in the coming 12 months.

Scheduling the surgery was totally my decision to make and I made it with the full knowledge of what it meant.  I made it because my body is telling me on a daily basis that ... it's time.

And all my mind could say yesterday was ...

... WHAT THE FUCK!

Like an avalanche it hit - rolling me over and over as I contemplated just exactly what I've signed on for.

I have no choice, I know that.  Still doesn't make it feel any better.

I am having my second total hip replacement in 2 months.

W.T.F.

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Reader Comments (8)

Hmmmmm. I wish I had some wonderfully wise words to bestow here, but I'm afraid all I have are platitudes. I'll forgo those and tell you that I'm saying a prayer for your serenity as soon as I post this. Hope it reaches the right authorities and does you some good :-)

July 17, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterSuldog

What Jim said, except I'll burn extra incense on your behalf.

July 17, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterBuck

We'll be here for you.

btw, great picture - very expressive!

July 17, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterPogue

My friend, the Junk Diva, had to have surgery to reconnect her Achilles tendon. Now she has to stay completely off of it for a couple of months. She pushes herself around on a little scooter (with her knee on the seat). I've spent some time at her house keeping her company. Ya want me to come take care of you? :)

July 17, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterLou

You all are fantastic, thank you so much. I'm not great at asking for or accepting help but this go-round, I'm working hard at being better. So...

I'll take all the prayers, incense and positive thoughts I can get!

And Lou...I have a very comfortable futon in a private room waiting for you. :-) xoxo

July 18, 2012 | Registered CommenterKris

Good luck Kris (In the UK they only allow two hip replacements - what if your third hip needs one? The NHS is just so stingey). Hope that made you chuckle?

July 20, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterHogday

Kris, I hear the second one is a piece of cake. At least you know what to expect! Make sure they give you lots of good pharmceuticals so you can at least enjoy lying on your back before they force you into PT.

Keep us posted too. When you're ready, we'll make you laugh silly suring your recovery.

:)

July 20, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterFloridaFlyer

HD - ha ha ha. Yes, it did make me chuckle.

FF - the PT forcing starts the day of surgery, depending on what time you finish. If you are out of recovery by noon, you'll have one PT session before the day ends. Seriously. Otherwise they come for you the next morning, promptly at 9:00. And they do say the 2nd is easier than the first, likely because no one with half a brain would let the 2nd one wait as long as they typically do the first one. Knowing how life is afterwards, I don't want to wait until I'm nearly crippled this time, like I did last time.

I'll take all offers of silliness, believe me. And my motto for this experience is: Better living thru modern chemistry. Bring on the medical-grade heroin (aka Dilaudid) and Oxycodone for home. Oh yeah baby.

July 22, 2012 | Registered CommenterKris

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