The Weekly Muse

We are - snowed in. Quite literally. Between the nearly 3 foot snowfall and the drifts from the howling winds overnight - there are doors we can't open. We are able to open the garage door and that's where the pic at left came from.  We measured just beyond where The Oracle has shoveled and it's 30 inches.

And it's still snowing. Great gusts of wind are blowing it around and I think we'll get another 4 inches before it finally stops in a few hours.  We estimate that the wall of plowed snow at the end of our driveway measures 4 feet and growing.  We aren't leaving until the plow guy gets here, that's for sure. 

The last time I remember this much snow from one event was the Blizzard of 1978. 

Epic.

Thankfully we are safely ensconced in our cozy and warm home; shortly there will be a fire in the fireplace and we will curl up with a good book and warms cups of tea.  And despite the howling 50+ mph gusting winds - we haven't lost power, for which we are very grateful.

And I continue down the path of happier thoughts and feelings.  My alternative healing last week has remained with me; meditations and prayers have been said throughout the past week and they are indeed helping.

I am, finally and for the first time in my life, letting go of the stories of other people.

Catching breath in a web of lies
I've spent most of my life
Riding waves, playing acrobat
Shadowboxing the other half
Learning how to react
I've spent most of my time

Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of the show
Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told it's supposed to be right

Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that
Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now

Those stories have held me back, kept me a victim in my own mind when in reality - I am no victim.

I am, as I've said before, fearfully and wonderfully made.  I am stronger than I ever thought possible and now - now I am allowing that strength to carry me thru each day.  Still, some are better than others but overall...I am more defiant and getting more sure of who I am every single day.

It's all a process of course but this time - I am in control of how it turns out.  And I like that.