The bronchitis of last week - lingers. I feel good in the mornings, pretty good during the day but by nightfall...I regress by multiple steps. The cough gets so much worse as darkness comes - by the time I go to bed, the juicy hacking is relentless.
I've had one solid night's sleep in 2 weeks. And I know that's taking its own toll at this point. It's a vicious circle and right now I feel - trapped.
I know this too shall pass but for now - can it please pass quicker?!
The music is apropos of - absolutely nothing. Jim Croce has been coming up quite a bit lately on one of my Pandora stations and that's not a bad thing. It's a lovely reminder of a talent gone far too soon; love the purity of his voice, so at-odds with his appearance.
And so we struggled through another week. Thankfully it wasn't that busy - either at work or at home - so the demands I had to place on myself were minimal, at most. Even made the executive decision to work from home yesterday.
In the process of working from home, I got an e-mail from an old friend who works as a headhunter. And she's hunting - for my head.
Or at least a head like mine.
She's recruiting for an Executive Administrative Management position for another Fortune 500 company in Hartford. She sent me the job description and - wow - it's a robust position. More than "just" an administrative position, it's more like a Chief of Staff. It's a huge job and there is a huge salary that goes along with it.
And when I say huge - I mean H.U.G.E. The salary would be a roughly 50% increase - and no, that's not a typo. Fifty Percent.
What's the catch, you ask? Well it's this - the company in question is in trouble. Has been for a few years; they are trying to keep things afloat long enough to get bought out. So they are paying ungodly amounts of money to get the right talent to help them do that. It would likely mean the job would only last for 2 years, at most.
The salary and bonus - would be a life-changer for The Oracle and I. You see - in July 2016 we pay off our mortgage. We can't quite believe we are staring down the barrel at this momentous event but - we are indeed fast approaching the next phase of our lives.
And this job opportunity - with it's ridiculous salary and bonus - would enable us to enter that phase completely debt-free in every possible way. In fact, I could bank so much money in the next 2 years that I could probably take the job I really want, much sooner than I thought.
Ultimately I want to be the Parish Admin for my church. It's a part-time gig, roughly 20 hours per week plus a few hours here and there on the weekends. The pay won't be much but the work will be 1.5 miles from home and will allow me the honor and blessing of working for and giving back to my parish family in a truly meaningful way.
Of course, I have to interview for - and get - this new opportunity. And that's not a guarantee nor am I sure I want it.
I have much to consider - our lives, my health and the stability of a company on the ropes. If I do get an interview I will need to be on my tip-toes, tuned in to every subtlety, be hyper-aware of body language, be adept at reading between the lines to ferret out whether this opportunity is something I'd be willing to commit to at all. I'll have to read the energy of every hallway, every room, every single place I walk thru during the interview process.
Because, if I do interview with them, they are going to try to sell me - hard. And I'm going to have to wear my body armor to protect me from that so I can see the truth.
It's not the salary and bonus, it's not the people (in this case anyway)...it's going to be about so much more. And I need to be ready to see it - clearly and plainly.