I had quite the rant all written in my mind; filled with witty phrases and clever thoughts.
It's all gone. Not sure where it went.
The new job opportunity remains static. I'm supposed to hear something this week; here it is Wednesday and I've heard - nothing. Which doesn't make me feel too warm and fuzzy; if I was their first choice I believe I'd have heard by now.
Frustration thy name is Kris.
My current job is - well, let me say this about that:
Gratitude...it can go a long way to making up for the absence of other things.
Absence of gratitude can be...de-motivating.
Oh - he hand-writes notes of praise and thanks to all sorts of people; copies their managers. Makes a big deal out of that kind of recognition in meetings. Sends e-mails noting accomplishments.
But does he ever recognize any of my contributions? Does he ever stop to acknowledge the work that I do?
Here's a great example:
Those meetings I mention that I do 4 times a year. All employee meetings plus business partners. Massive organizational challenges for 100+ people with moving parts, multiple concurrent sessions. Navigation documents. Registration tables. Technology support. Catering.
We do a survey of attendees after each one so that we can continue to fine-tune content, flow, participation, etc... In the survey for the meeting done this past December my name was mentioned multiple times - in praise of the organization, flow and challenges of the meeting. High praise was heaped upon me for doing such an amazing job of making everything look and feel - seamless.
I don't know about it because my boss mentioned it to me. I know about it because I got a copy of the results.
No thank you. No "job well done". No recognition of any kind. I am just a body at a desk for him. There are days when he barely recognizes that I sit right outside his office.
I know he's busy. I know he's very important; that people are clamoring to meet with him. I know that the very top senior leaders in the entire company think the sun rises and sets on his skinny shoulders.
And I know that I think he's an arrogant, self-important, narcissistic ass.
And it's not like I haven't made it clear to him what I need from him in the way of support and feedback. He knows; he just doesn't give a shit.
Which leaves me - nowhere.
Well...now I guess I found that rant after all.
UPDATE @ 1:00pm EST: To further prove what kind of manager my boss is: our offices are closed today due to the weather but he is in the office. He took a walk around the department and e-mailed 2 of his direct reports informing them that 2 of their employees did not take their laptops home and, would they be taking a PTO day today?
OK - there is SO much wrong with that. First of all - the company is officially closed. The statement we all received indicated that if you could work from home you were expected to do so. So if you can't work from home - it's just a snow day per the company. Second of all - he was wrong about those 2 employees. One of them was actually in the office but had been away from his office for so long that the lights were out (shocking, that lights go out in an office, I mean really...); the other has a 2nd laptop at home.
So here is this man - a senior leader - walking around his department spying on people and tattling on them to their managers; expecting them to take a vacation day despite the fact that the company office is officially closed.
He didn't used to be this kind of micro-manager; when he first joined our area 3 years ago he was a high-level management type - treat people like adults, he used to say. We are all responsible for ourselves, he'd say. He's not a babysitter, he'd say.
Times have changed and what's worse - those top leaders in the entire company are fostering this kind of micro-management by rewarding him (and others like him) and giving them increasing recognition across the organization.
I really want out of the cubicle farm but that is a few years away yet. ***le sigh***